i wanted to so desperatley tell my friend why i’m so reliable on weed today. 
But i couldnt do that, i could never.

I want to see my psychiatrist again but mums putting of making he appointment which constantly scares me, i dont want to end up in hospital.

I think thats what she’s scared of.
but she needs to understand that if i don’t get help… i will.  

on the bright side i am a very happy person.